Friday, December 26, 2008

christmas, where did it go?

let me start off by saying please excuse all errors in this post to come. i am trying to do this update from my phone, while i am at work.

Ok now that i got that important measage out of the way. christmas has come and gone. God is it me or was that awful quick?

Christmas eve we went to my cousin Heather's house. The kids had a blast! I really enjoy spending time with my family....they are good way of course. After my cousin's we took a ride to Parsippany and my Father was there. I gave him his gift and got out of there as fast as possible. I really do not like being around him.

Santa came and left many gifts under the tree for the kids. They really enjoyed all their gifts. Austin was so into all of his new stuff, he didnt even want to leave to go with my Grandparents for a few days. That is very rare for him. I made dinner for us and my dad. We had ham, garlic mashed potatos, greenbeans, corn, stuffing and cranberry sauce. It turned out very well.

I need to leave work now, i will try and update again soon.

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Hard Times...

I've done some soul searching and have made some tough choices over the past few weeks. Things, I believe were good choices, healthy choices for my own well being. Someone else may disagree and although I see their point, they can not seem to see mine. Mentally and emotionally I am to a point. They may blame it on other issues or even other people I may be talking with, but what they believe is wrong. I am not saying I am perfect and that some problems were not my fault. People do change, and it may not be the way others want it. I need to stop living my life to please him and start living my life for me. For that I need to move forward without him. Yes it may sound mean and yes it may be hurtful, but I cannot control the way I feel just to please others.