Thursday, December 31, 2009


Well turning this into a picture blog turned out to be a lot harder then I antcipated it being. With that said, I don't really know what format I really want to follow anymore. So for now I'll just give you a quick update until I figure it out.

Christmas was a lot of fun. The kids had a lot of fun and got pretty much everything they asked Santa for. Well Paige asked for a dog or cat and did not get either one, maybe next year kid. Austin choked on Christmas dinner, thank goodness my grandpa got to him quickly. That was so scary and heartbreaking for me to see. He is ok now thank god!

I got the iPhone for Christmas and I love it. I wish they had an app for this blog, but I didn't see one. Anyone know if they even make one?

I am headed to jersey tomorrow to spend new years eve with my grandparents, the kids and Matt. I can't wait!!

Happy new year everyone!!!!

Sunday, November 29, 2009

Catching Up...

I wasn't able to post pictures for the past few days, so I'm playing catch up.

Watching Serendipity at Matt's Aunt's house

Waiting in line at the drive thru of Sonic for our drinks. Really don't get how you order green apple and get grape two different times.

MMMMM Home wrecker from Moe's

Friday, November 27, 2009


Thanksgiving at Matt's Aunt's house. Lots of fun and lots of good food!

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Fun with food...

Stuffed shells I made for Sue's family

Austin made this apple/marshmallow turkey in school today

Tuesday, November 24, 2009


I think I am going to change this blog into a 365 blog. If you don't know what it is you can read about it here. I am going to try very hard to keep up with this. I think this could be very interesting to look back on. I'll start today with a picture my Mom took of Paige while they were making cookies this morning.

Monday, November 23, 2009


School is almost over, I am so thankful for that. It's been a pretty good semester I really can't complain. Next semester I am only taking one early childhood class, because I know trying to schedule site visits for two classes is going to very difficult. I am so excited to take my art class though.

Matt and I are back together and that makes me VERY happy! I really feel blessed to have him in my life. He is just so kind and loving and we get along so well I think. I am just so in love!!

The kids are getting so big. Where did the time go? I can't believe Paige is 5 already. Austin is in 2nd grade and he really seems to enjoy it. That is so great! It's wonderful to see how far he has come and grown since kindergarten.

Friday, October 16, 2009


Over the past week I have had much to think about. I've questioned the reason Matt broke up with me. I questioned myself. I've gone through many emotions from extreme sadness to extreme anger. It's been a trying week. Finding out there is no hope for us, had me feeling something I had not felt in this past week. It was like my heart breaking for a second time. Then to find out the reason why there is no hope for us...well that...that hurt more then you could probably imagine. I felt guilty and angry with myself. I felt horrible and just beat myself up over it. How could I make someone I love feel that way? Feel wrong for his choices and what is best for him? Who does that? I love Matt in such a way I can't begin to explain, I just don't think there are words to describe it. I wish I could go back to Friday and rethink what I was saying. Not that I think it would matter any. I just thought this whole thing was going to get easier, but honestly it's not. If anything it's harder everyday. To go through my day knowing I won't hear from him or possibly ever see him again....I can't grasp that. That was my best friend. I'm finding it hard to sleep at night, even harder to wake up. I hate crying and now I just cry everyday. I feel so hated and that hurts so much. Today on facebook I had a status that said:

Love is a temporary madness,erupts like an earthquake,then subsides. When it subsides u have to make a decision,to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable 2 part. That's what love is. It's not excitement or promise of eternal passion, that's just being in love, which any of us can convince ourselves that we are. Love is what is leftover when being in love has burned away.

Anyway some commented on it asking if I thought that was true. I said: Given what happened over the past week....I don't know. I think maybe. I feel love can get you through anything, if you believe the love is worth it. If it's not worth it to you, then problems seem impossible to mend, compromise, work through. Just my take. But I'm bitter so who knows

I never really thought of it that way, but I think I do now and that hurts a lot!

It's getting late I need to go to sleep.